Sunday, May 12, 2019

Death of the Damsel

(Works for Damoiseau's too.)
Ask a hundred people what they would consider to be "dying a good death", and most would say it would be to die at home, in bed, asleep. A few of the action-oriented types, would say they'd want to die as they lived - skydiving, mountain-climbing, piloting their plane - you know, "fighting the good fight till the end".

Human life is a journey unto death. And if death is not an end, then it must be a bridge to somewhere, we-know-not-where. At death, one will either be asleep in a sickbed somewhere, ordinary walking-around awake, or conscious.

If one is conscious, one can step onto and across the bridge. If one is just awake, one will step onto the bridge, but only possibly cross it. And if one dies in their sleep, unconscious, then one just collapses there in a pile at the foot of the bridge, with all the rest who've gone before.

An obituary column of three people:
Mr. A., lying there in her terminal sickbed for the last several weeks, now asleep, unconscious, unaware of what's taking place, barely breathing, weakened pulse, finally dies, slumped in her bed, takes her place among the rest at the foot of the bridge. Because she died while unconscious, she is survived by nobody.

Ms. B., walking around, ordinarily awake, has a massive coronary, eyes bulging, shooting arm pains, unbearable pressure in the chest - she's aware of what's happening - then she dies, right there on the side of the road, but at least she knew what was going on, and so stepped onto the bridge. Because she died while awake, she is survived by her immediate family and friends.

Mr. C., fully conscious when she died, didn't really 'know it' - oh, she Knew it but she didn't notice any particular change-in-circumstances, she just stepped out onto and across the bridge, while we, on this side, just 'lost sight of her' - though she didn't lose sight of herself. Because she died conscious and aware of what was happening, she is survived by the whole world. A true bodhisattva.

It does not matter the circumstances of your untimely death, where you are, what you are doing or not doing, what you did while alive, or didn't do, nor the circumstances around you at the time, or leading up to the time of your death - all that matters is your state of consciousness at the actual time of death. That is why 'taking your own life', or 'allowing it to be taken' (Jesus-like, Socrates-like) - conscious suicide - might not be such a 'bad thing'; at least, then, you're in control of the moment when it happens. At any other time, you're under the law of accident.

If a conscious man or woman does die, does they Will it so? 
And if so, is that suicide?


originally published in May 2004

Wednesday, March 6, 2019

What IS "My Life"

Humans are caught between a depression-producing neurally-connected web of poorly maintained and difficult to clearly recall memories, regrets, and missed opportunities, AND an anxiety-producing amorphous cloud of hopes, fears, plans, dreams, expectations and simulations of which, probably, 95-99+% will never, ever come to pass.

There one is, 
"Clowns to the left of me,
Jokers to the right, here I am,
Stuck in the middle 
With "Me".

But, what IS "Me"? Realize, without imagination and fantasy, that there is no "self", but a smattering of "consciousness of brain activity" that we call senses: sounds, smells, tastes, visions, thoughts, feelings, etc., and, making matters muddier, that same consciousness is a byproduct of brain activity. So which came first? "Consciousness of brain activity", or "Brain activated consciousness"?
 When the brain dies, consciousness dies. 
No more mind, no more thoughts and no more sensations. 
No more "ghost in the brain".  No more "soul". 
And, no more "me".

And, what IS "My Life"? When the party is over, and the guests have all retired to their corner of the world brain that last contained them, what is my life then? There is no Who that lives on, and on. There is just YOU THERE, RIGHT NOW, conscious of the "squiggles on this page", words, sentences, and the environment around your head and body, whilst hundreds of thousands of randomly arising associations are making your short-term AIM to read this damn silliness in front of you, all the more difficult. It is kind of amazing that anything actually gets done at all.
Is ANYONE still with me?

After all is thought, said and done, there are no Human Beings either. They are, for most people alive today, another species, or even a sub-species. Non-human animals don't act this way; they are genetically inclined to be one-with those of their own species till death - and sometimes, even one-with those not of their own species. But many humans, by the age of 7-14-21 or so, are already exhibiting signs of being a freak, an outcast, anti-socially damaged goods, and "not of this world". The next thing you know, they are acquiring weapons of mass destruction, and locating "gun free zones" to take out their seemingly abnormal brain firings of another kind (but are they... really?), on the surrounding life forms. Try to find a non-human life form that acts this way, excluding deadly viruses and other pathogens that have no idea what's going on, or maybe, no creature that acts this way has any idea what's going on.

Humans are just a couple neural-firings away from EITHER descending into a distorted chasm of negative hostility based upon self-survival, or self-destruction, at ANY COST... OR, ascending into a clarified crescendo of epiphanic mind music of cosmic proportions, OR, something in-between, or out-landish. 

Monday, March 5, 2018

Draining the Swamp, and other fantasies

Regarding the DEEP STATE, the SWAMP, the EVIL UNDERBELLY, here is something I just read from an anonymous friend, and agree with for the most part. LONG READ! WELL WORTH IT!



Most People involved in the Drain the Swamp MAGA movement do not really understand what drain the swamp really actually 100% means. Your mind wont grasp just how bad and how deep this goes.

First, the gun control stuff is exactly the same as the DACA stuff Trump did recently. He offered them 1.8 million people to have a pathway to citizenship over 12 years. And there were only under 800,000 DACA people. He knew the democrats and the deep state would never agree to this. They could not allow the ending of the lottery or the ending of DACA to happen or the wall being built, so they could not agree. Now DACA is dead, the DACA people are starting to see it and have already turned on the democrats. Now there will be no DACA agreement and they will ALL go away.

This gun control stuff is the same thing - exactly the same. He is offering some, but not much, and he knows they can't accept it. The Deep State knows they have to confiscate guns, period, or they lose and he is not offering that. Period. They will never make an agreement - it will be just like DACA. And it will go away because they were unwilling to make any deal that did not confiscate guns. And there will be no deal. He is showing the American people the deep state does not want to make any agreement that does not hurt the American people and enrich the deep state, and Trump is winning on this. Trump is offering bump stocks? HAHAHA! Anyone who has ever hunted and or served in the military would never use one of those, it reduces your accuracy terribly. Even the other stuff he has offered is so far short of confiscation he knows they can't accept.

What does it mean to drain the swamp to all of you? You think they can go out and get 10,000 evil folks and put them away for life or even execute them and The Deep State Swamp is now drained? You can't possibly be that stupid! So you think you can take out 10,000, maybe 20,000 deep stater folks and things are now good? Perhaps think you can leave intact the apparatus of the deep state and we win? What? You have to be kidding! What funds the deep state right up front? Do any of you have any clue at all? The deep state set this up back around 1913-1914 and they do not need a single person in our government to be on their side for it to keep paying them daily! If you believe that by getting rid of the bad people you have won you are dead wrong.

So what does fund the deep state? Its the Federal Reserve. It was created through murder done in 1912 (the only rich folks who opposed the federal reserve all died on the titanic and the ones who wanted it decided not to go on the maiden voyage. Still believe in coincidence?) So that it could be set up without opposition and through inflation began to steal literally multi millions of dollars per year from every place a FED bank was located. What is worse is right now as we speak there are only 3 countries in the whole world that do not have a federal reserve bank. The Federal Reserve must be totally destroyed to stop the main funding path to the deep state. And yes, through every single country. Still can't grasp how deep this is and how bad it really is? The US must go back to treasury notes backed by gold and the FED has to be burned to the ground with not one thing of it left in the world. Do you not realize they caused the great depression, World War I and World War II and all the wars in between? WAKE UP! They hate your guts!

Now once you get the FED do you think you have dismantled the Deep State? No! You have only scratched the surface. Lets look at the education in the US. The DEPT of Education has for years with teachers unions (private and government) been manipulating education in this country to dumb the population down and to make the young people all start to hate the American Dream. As long as it exists, a part of the deep state exists. We must take education back from this unconstitutional entity and get rid of it lock stock and barrel. In fact, now the Dept of Education controls every single level of education in the country for K through college, and in the process they got rid of all vocational and tech schools that were never run by the government and most of you are too young to remember them. This entity is federal, state, county and city levels. It's a cancer in the heart of our future.

What else is Deep state. Lets look at the constitution and you see the only thing the US Federal Government can own is Washington DC. Nothing else is allowed to them at all! Therefore if we want the deep state gone we have to remove all land from federal control outside of Washington DC. All National parks and all LAND currently owned by the Government, all waterways and wetlands and state land, needs to be returned to the states. Period! Do you have any idea why they justified much of this? Because some states had great national parks and gained lots of money and others did not so they let the government control it to disburse revenue from each park evenly among the states and its totally unconstitutional. In fact all the money is not actually given to the states. The deep state steals billions of it annually. Still think there are no coincidences going on here? WAKE UP!

In fact if you look at every department of the Federal Government you find over 80% of it was created between 1913 and now, with much of it being put in place in the 1947-1960 time frame. Yeah... right after World War II, what a coincidence that one is. You know what's odd? JFK was trying to take it apart and they killed him. Still think there are no coincidences? JFK was one of the good guys and he was a democrat and I hate democrats. Think that is unchristian? Well, I hate people who have murdered millions of children and are still doing it.

We have to get rid of the IRS, EPA, FDA, CDC, Dept of Agriculture, BATF (now calling themselves the Bureau of Alcohol Tobacco Firearms and Explosives - none of which are illegal), BLM (Bureau of Land Management), Dept of Forestry, National Park foundations and departments in the interior, and a hundred more because they are all DEEP STATE evil! Are you starting to get the picture yet? Even a little?

You have no idea what is coming, and while you are looking at crap that Trump is using to prove they don't give a crap about you or anyone else in the country, most of you still can't SEE IT! They hate us all - Liberals, Conservatives, Christians, anti-Christians, all of us. Rather than have us awake they would rather see us all DEAD! Are you starting to get it yet? Just a little? WAKE UP! Stop chasing Ghosts and start to look how deep the deep state really is and what its doing to you! They want you docile or DEAD!



Here is how I think this is going to go down. Right now the deep state is purging most conservative and middle of the road neutral web sites from Facebook, Google, Twitter, and YouTube. They are also starting Denial of Service attacks on most alternative news sites on the web. Once they get that done - and they are accelerating it rapidly now - then only the deep state point of view will be left on the internet. And the MSM will be left on TV (think you will hear the truth from them?) The good guys I believe will not allow that to continue so when it's close to done they will pull the plug on the whole internet. It may get even worse than that. Do you have any clue what pulling the plug on the whole internet will do? No credit cards will work, no bank will be able to give out money or at least very few will and the only thing that will work is cash. How long can you and your neighbors last under that condition? How long do you think businesses will last? Are you starting to get the picture yet? WAKE UP! During that time the Good guys will win or the Bad guys will win. Your options are few.... PRAY. Pray like your life depends on it because it does. Pray for the good guys and pray for Trump and pray that JFK's death will be revealed for the truth of the man he was.

When it ends and things begin to be restored. Two things will happen. Trump will have won and a convention of governors will have restored the constitution of 1786 (or 1787) back to the US. Trump will have kept his word to the people of this country and he will have restored the constitution to the people and not to the Deep state. The immediate effect of which will be the removal of most of the current parts of the federal government forever. Or people will show up at your door to confiscate your guns and probably your life. You will then have the option of fighting back and dying or maybe low probability living. Or you can meekly give up and let them take you away to be killed or reeducated and losing your soul forever. Your option. As for me and mine, I know who I believe and am fully ready to fight till God takes me home. What about you?

How many people do you really think understand what is about to happen?
How many do you think are ready?

Wednesday, November 22, 2017

"It's A Man's, Man's, Man's World"

This is a mans world
But it would be nothing, nothing
Without a woman or a girl..." Mr. J. B.

The body is a great and wonderful thing, 
but it is nothing, 
NOTHING
without a brain and a mind

This planet, Earth, the third rock from Sol, has been around for four and half billion years or so, and Life has been populating and repopulating for three and a half billion years or so, and Man has been walking and talking for the last hundred thousand years or so, but only in the last few thousand have things really taken off.

In the last few hundred years or so - while accelerating decade by decade, such that in only a couple hundred years or so - life expectancy has more than doubled, technology has put men on the moon, and has produced smart wireless devices that can wrap around your ears and eyes, while your car drives itself - with humans as the passengers - to wherever you like. 

BUT, the brain and the mind is made for much more than just altering the look and feel of this planet, increasing the number of objects that are mostly useless, and generating wealth for the fewest of the few, while the rest remain nearly in poverty. This extremely obvious fact, for some, has all but escaped most everyone such that their main examples of "personal achievement" has mostly to do with physical pursuits - building things, accumulating things, playing with things... things, Things and more THINGS!

The body is a great and wonderful thing, but it is nothingNOTHING, without an Aim and a Wish. The body has been around for about 4 to 7 decades or so, give or take, and has been wandering around a VERY small patch of land for most, if not all of that time, but ask yourself, honestly, what do you have to "show for it" intellectually, spiritually? Do you spend most of your time thinking about yourself, your issues, your concerns, your irritations, OR are you actually beginning to investigate, and explore, and discover, and create that which only the Brain and Mind, governed by Aim and Wish can DO, even more than anything else you do, physically?

The Aim and the Wish were not "designed" (by D(esigne)r Who) for altering the planet, or the body, but for experiencing Higher Mind, which everyone has direct access to (by virtue of having been born of woman, as a result of the sperm & egg hookup sequence) even this instant, as you are reading these words, and thinking your thoughts about them.

Ask yourself, what do you have to "show for it," intellectually, spiritually, that you can demonstrate not only to yourself, but to others if asked, that ADVANCES your CHANCES of SUCCESS at This Thing you have embarked upon so many years or decades ago?

Because, remember 
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Friday, November 3, 2017

Anomaly - Glorious, or Horribilis?

Recently overheard at my local 
caffeine-imbibing establishment,
(slightly edited for content from "True Detective, S1") 

"I consider myself a realist, or in philosophical terms a pessimist - it means I'm bad at parties. I think human consciousness is a tragic misstep in human evolution. We became too self-aware. Nature created an aspect of nature, but separate from itself. 

"We are creatures that should not exist by natural law. We are "things" that labor under the illusion of having a "self", but it's really just a secretion of sensory experience and feeling, programmed with total assurance that we are each SOME-body, when in fact everybody is NO-body

"I think the honorable thing for our species to do is to deny our programming, stop reproducing, and walk hand-in-hand into extinction. One last midnight - brothers and sisters opting out of a raw deal. (Obvious question then: what's the point of getting out of bed every morning?) I tell myself I bear witness. But, the real answer is that it's obviously my programming, and I lack the constitution for suicide."

The Speaker continues...

"The common good has got to make up fairy tales, and fairy tales are not good for anybody. (Referring to religion in general:) If the only thing keeping a person decent is the expectation of divine reward, then that person is a piece of shit. What does it say about life, huh? You've got to get together, tell yourself stories that violate every law of the universe just to get through the day? (Obvious question: you figure it's all a scam right?) Yeah, it's been that way since one monkey looked at the sun and told the other monkey: (pointing up) 'He said... for You... to give me YOUR share.'"

"People. They're so frail they'd rather put a coin in a wishing well, rather than buy dinner! As for the preachers, it is all just the transference of fear and self-loathing to an Authoritarian Vessel - catharsis. The preacher absorbs their followers dread with his narrative, and because of this he is effective in proportion to the amount of certainty he can project. Certain linguistic anthropologists think that religion is a language virus that rewrites pathways in the brain, that dulls critical thinking. (But, having none,) at least I am not racing to a red light."

The Speaker continues...

"You see, we've been caught in what I call "a life trap", a gene-deep certainty that things will be different... that you'll move to another city and meet the people that'll be your friends for the rest of your life; that you'll fall in love and be fulfilled. Fuckin' fullfillment, and closure: just empty jars to hold this shit-storm. Nothing is ever fulfilled until the very end. And closure?...?...? No, no, no... nothing is ever over.

"The ontological fallacy of expecting a light at the end of a tunnel, that's what the preacher sells, same as a shrink. You see, the preacher encourages your capacity for illusion, and then he tells you it's a virtue. It's such a sense of entitlement, isn't it? "All of this is for me, Me, ME!" We are so fuckin' important, right, right? 

"People. I have seen the finale of thousands of lives, young, old, each one so sure of their realness, and that their sensory experience constituted a unique individual, with purpose and meaning, so certain that they were more than just a biological puppet. But... truth wills out, and everybody sees - once the strings are cut, all fall down. These still bodies each so certain they were more than the sum of their urges. All that useless spinning, tired mind collisions, so full of desire and ignorance."

The Speaker summarizes...

"This - THIS - is what I'm talking about: Time, and Death, and Futility. There are broader ideas at work here... in that last nanosecond before their inevitable death they saw what they were. That you, your self, it's all a big drama. It was never anything but a jury-rig of presumption and dumb will, and you could just let go, finally knowing that you didn't have to hold on so tight. To realize that in all your life - all your love, all your hate, all your memory, all your pain - it was all the same thing. It was all the same dream that you had inside that locked room up here, between the ears. Just a dream about being... a 'person'... a 'self'... a 'me'... an 'I'."

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Glorious or Horribilus or Both?

Wednesday, November 1, 2017

Transcending Beliefs

It doesn't take genius-level intelligence to look around, out there, and even in here sometimes, and believe "things are seriously AMISS, god damnit!" Even young people believe that! Some seem to be driven to madness, taking out their frustrations about the world-at-large on those near and dear to them... from family members, to school-mates, to teachers, and even to anyone else within automatic rifle-shot or rented truck-collision. "Killing others" seems to be the fractured thought circulating in many minds world over these days, though most humans do not have the nerve to activate their body to the degree necessary to pull it off, so they just stew in their own juices.

Almost everyone - even here, on this group of readers if you can believe that - thinks things in the world, including themselves at times, are going "straight to hell, or 'the Bad Place'" and have been for a long, long time. But, seriously, can these beliefs even be believed? Or more importantly, can they be transcended?

Too many people take the ostrich approach. 
You know that one, right? 

Turning AWAY from the world-at-large, so as to avoid DEALING with it, and all the complex issues associated with it (like moving to the back-country and living in a one-room shack so as to "meditate" all day long) is never a solution to anything. One could even suggest that A Reason the world-at-large is so screwed up (apparently), is because most people (way more than half, probably 95%) turn AWAY from what is going on out there (and even - you guessed it - in here), rather than activating the mind in order to Transcend their own firmly-held Beliefs.

What could that actually mean, anyway?
How about this: Discovering the forces involved, both out there and especially IN HERE (between the ears, and up and down the entire nervous system) that precede your belief-creating processes. Thinking and believing wrongly about the world and oneself CAUSES the world to seem worse than it is. Fact is, there is nothing at all "amiss" out there in the world or in oneself (surprise, surprise), and things are operating "Juuuust Riiiight" - i.e., in the only way they CAN operate - because... remember... we're talking about HUMANS and the world they populate. 

Who in their "right-mind" can suggest, even for a moment,
that the NATURAL WORLD is amiss in any way?
Cats sleeping with DOGS?
Lions resting with LAMBS?

Consider for a moment (or more if necessary): How is it that PEOPLE started "screwing up" the world-at-large in all its possible aspects - which was in the beginning, remember...  THE Garden? It had to do with satisfying the basic survival needs - food, and shelter - including sexual needs, and property needs, and only became more and more dangerous to other people, as the mind became more and more complex and sophisticated. The more sophisticated the mind became, the more clever, convoluted and even "crazy" did the supposed solutions to those needs become. I.E., Rather than operating at their inherently genius-level intelligence (which is possible in ALL men, from their beginning of what might be called, "working with others")...
...they began operating from the lowest-levels of intelligence,
like GANGS, 
MOBS, HORDES, ARMIES.

The New Rule - which is many thousands of years old - is Bash the other guys over the head, or just kill them, then take their food, their women, their tools, their homes, and for entertainment, rape, pillage and plunder what's left if anything.  
That always works, right human?

Certainly, it is not so easy to move from ordinary, low-level thinking and belief-making, to high-level intelligence and reason, and humans can not generally achieve this SHIFT on their own, no matter what some who've only read books might try to tell you. Someone must be a LIVING example to those who can learn by example (and not like an ape or dog learns - no way), and that's how civilization grows and matures. Same is true between the ears. Some thought(s) and/or idea(s) must take charge in one, in order to put things right. The obvious clue that more work is necessary - then and today - is observing negativity of any kind arise and take hold of one, because once such negativity arises it generally continues until the energy is expended, and a certain calm ensues, when the person can attempt to investigate the reality of the situation. Wrong thinking and Faulty beliefs are most often the cause of one's negativity, and energy depletion. Reason and Objectivity may result by Transcending Negativity. But, good luck with that, right human? Well, at least until Genghis, or Gurdjieff, or God, or Real I takes control of the hordes of "i's"... but that is for another day, okay?
Lest anyone actually believes "Hey, I'm already in a transcendent state!" answer yourself this: What's up with Trump - or Drumpf, as some like to demean him - being in the White House? Huh? What do you REALLY think about that, and HIM? Don't hold back from yourself ("real I" is watching).
And what about the Las Vegas open concert assault-rifle major-massacre, and the New York bike path rental-truck mini-massacre? What's that all about? And what do you really think about the alleged perpetrators? Don't hold back from yourself ("real I" is watching).
Fact repeated for emphasis: there is nothing at all "amiss" out there, or in oneself. Thinking & Saying that with real conviction, and real understanding, is what may be called Transcendence, or at least reliably "leading to it."

Tuesday, October 31, 2017

"Exploring the nervous system"

This Kinda Stuff  (exploring it is doing it***)
  • is not for the faint of heart,
  • is not for weekend warriors, who usually miss most weekends, and show up late and leave early,
  • is not for disinterested sightseers, who are easily distracted by irrelevancies, and side-trips,
  • is not for negative nellies, always finding the downside, the ugly side, the dangerous side, 
  • is not for those who hate the hard-stuff: mathematics, neuro- and cosmic-science, physics, objective art; favoring the soft stuff: like religions, philosophies, psychologies, and all the various kinds of pulp fictions, and new age pap,
  • is NOT for those who love dogmas, doctrines, holy writs, sacrosanct bibles, rigid and strict regulations, arbitrary and confusing punishments, and structured rule-based methodologies...
This Kinda Stuff
  • IS for explorers and travelers who are more interested in going upstream than floating downstream, being fully capable of paddling up the narrowest streams and tributaries, without tipping over time and time again, 
  • IS for those whose explorer is awake, active in their "A-Game", and ready to rumble,
  • IS for those willing to do whatever it takes to continue at whatever cost, never giving up,
  • IS for those who love the hard-stuff: mathematics, neuro- and cosmic-science, physics, objective art,
  • IS for those who don't mind going it alone, knowing full well it will be difficult or impossible to find suitably-prepared journey-mates,
  • IS for those who would rather invent and discover the New and previously Unknown and Unseen, than go where any others had gone before... to be like J.K. said: "Be crazy dumbsaint of the mind"...
None of this is fact, of course, only opinions gathered over years and years with many many people who claim to be "explorers."

Explorers of the higher ends of the narrowest streams and tributaries of the nervous system, can not be afraid, in advance, of their new experiences because they can NOT be observed directly, only by the manifestations which are produced. It is not unlike hearing sounds and seeing lights far off in the jungle growth surrounding one - up, down, left, right, inside, outside, "Which IS it!?!" - but not allowing yourself to get unduly afraid, and scattered, and fractured to the point of backing off and turning around in fear. Fear and imaginary Fantasies are one's worst features, whereas Bravery and direct Observations are one's best features.

One must have overcome - and the earlier the better - their innate fears and repulsions of the "denizens of the deep, wide, and faraway", especially the "uprights of various hues" who carry with them bushels and bagloads of beliefs, theories, supposed facts and figures, and all sorts of nonsense and silliness regarding "What's Up!" Other's ideas about the world are of no enduring concern unless and until you can personally verify them. Till then, it's all just talk, talk, talk. Also, if they personally have traveled up the tributaries and rightly experienced "what's up there", you will know them "by their fruits", or if you can't tell, then just disregard it.
Do The Work!
~~~~~~~~~~~~
A child can understand growing up only by DOING IT, no matter how many times he might ask his parents, "What's it like?" A would-be vagabond cannot understand world travel simply by reading about faraway places while ensconced in the familiarity of home. And you, no matter how talented or brimming with life you currently may be, cannot know what it is to become even more alive, until you actually DO IT! And continue doing it.
***Exploring It Is Doing It***
Human Brain and structures directly connected
This exploration is organized around the development of precise methods which would accelerate a person's rate of experience and intensify the sensation of being more alive, to begin using your own experience simultaneously as a scientist's laboratory and an artist's studio - a process that invigorates all parts of a person, "from tip to toe" as it were.
Again...none of this is fact
only opinions gathered over years and years 
with many people who claim to be "explorers."